“When people show you who they are, believe them the first time.” -Maya Angelou

She wasn’t ever satisfied. There was a dark empty void inside of her that reached desperately into the souls of others. Her name was snake eyes.

S and I grew up together, but we weren’t ever really close. We’d learn much later that we really weren’t all that different from one another. S was fun, daring, and overall pretty damn ballsy. She contained the ability to control and execute all things around her. I admired her character, or lack thereof because that’s what made her so strong. I’d later learn that the strength  I thought I admired was a simple makeshift shell she used to shield herself from the rest of the world. And when she would moult she always lose a little bit more of herself.

S was mean. A grade A snake of a girl, who would never recover from tragic events in her life. She searched desperately through parts and pieces of others, to create her own self. I remember watching her one night when we were out, sifting through groups of people, different conversations, with her snake eyes. She mimicked them, she copied her sister, she even created a girl with destructive habits from weekend flings. S was lost, but she would neverlet you know that.

Being young is confusing. It is trying for each and every one of us. S would take and take away from everyone she encountered, but she never gave back. She broke everything which surrounded her and tried to make the broken pieces a whole. Her devilish smirk can still be seen out of the corner of my eye when I’m out, surrounded by real genuine people. I still hear her false laugh and meek responses to things I’ve said. Her venomous palaver stinging in the back of my memory.

S was a girl who had lost everything. She was a girl we have all crossed and will continuously cross time and time again on this journey through life. S will cut you down and push you out, but you will win. Because S is powerless in all that she does. She is a fictitious serpentine who feeds off of power because she herself, is powerless.